Clear Cuts in that warmth you once had

Clear Cuts in that warmth you once had

Because we all know that moment of realization isn't easy, but also, the moment of categorization is worst. It's when you know you're done with realizing, with analyzing, proofing and now you're categorizing because you're done.

This crazy categorization cuts what it shouldn't sometimes, but makes clear cuts in other times.

Clear cuts simply mean that after a life of friendships, you start to know who actually give you the warm feeling in your heart, who really mean, and those who you'll forever be grateful for even if they only passed for a bit, and those who are a part of the experience, and that number of people you can't get rid of but you've had enough with, and then the pass-by souls.

When you clear cut the people that surround you in every stage, you know you're pickier, more full of yourself, and you maybe start understanding the walls people build around them, but you never accept the rude ones, ever!

When your heart categorizes them, you know it's out of your hand, you fight it inside but then the blades open, and you see clearly why your heart made you stay away.

That warm feeling inside doesn't come for anyone, and that grateful feeling wasn't for everyone that helped me one day, lately it's for the people that you thought would help the least but they push you forward without you even realizing, those people who show the care enough for you to move and do the right thing, or just anything!

As I believe in time, this means the older I get the harder it is to have that spark with people? The harder it is to keep them around, and the harder it is to be closer to people.

Does this also mean that by 30 it'll be impossible to find that spark and people would just be passing numbers and faces?

Would time also mean I might one day be more focused on practical shit and forget the warm feelings I need inside?

And does all this mean i'll keep the old loved ones and friends just because I once felt the warmth with them and that's it? Does that mean lovers stay because it was only? And friends change but remain there or leave to the North Pole at once?!

Does this mean that even friendship leaves..