What if your mind captures a moment and it doesn't ever go away? What if the fear you have now is a permanent state you can't get over? How do you know when you can..
How do you realize that this fear is something you have to overcome..
When are you allowed to act on your fear. When you know it's true and now you're sure enough to make the move, to move on or move back. But what if your fear is really big, big you started thinking about constantly. Big enough that it's getting in your system. Big that it's bugging you. Big but yet small enough that it's only there. That it being there is what makes you more afraid.
Realizing fear for the first time in your life is not an easy idea, that whole concept of fear is not easy.
And ah beginning, and again beginnings! Is it better to live through beginnings, or to turn into that phase that you've had the beginning of everything?
What's worth it? The journey or the stableness of it..
Do you live with questions and move on?, answer them and continue? or live through them?
Does it make sense that all the questions you have might end one day, then who am I? And if I'm now lost in the fear of all the questions, will a day come when I'm afraid because I stopped questioning?
And looks like answers are impossible.
5-4-2017
